PCOS - The Scoop

Living with PCOS isn’t the easiest. Living and working in the beauty industry with PCOS; well that makes it a tad bit extra harder but not impossible to manage. Before I jump in, let me explain a few things. This entry is a bit more on the personal side, PCOS is a condition that I’ve been living with for over 20 years (currently 35 yrs old) and still struggle within my everyday life. It’s also a condition that technically never goes “away” and there is no actual “cure” till this day. In my experience living with PCOS; I believe, not only is it a condition that not only requires some significant lifestyle changes to make it easier to manage in your everyday life, but also requires a good amount of mental strength, persistence and perseverance. I am not a doctor, but this is my first-hand experience.

The Struggle is REAL

When it comes to Acne ….. it’s always been a very sensitive subject to me. Especially because I’m a makeup artist & a licensed skin care specialist (esthetician)! Naturally a problem solver, go-getter & a huge perfectionist too. I guess, I always felt like an oxymoron really. I mean … I’m a licensed skin care specialist that can tell you all the in’s & out of skin, how to improve not only your acne but also your skin quality (pretty passionate on skin and skincare) yet I suffer from PCOS Cystic Acne. 😏

Till not too long ago, I didn’t realize how my cystic acne really did play a huge role on my self-esteem issues. I openly admit I do struggle with low self-esteem & anxiety/depression/physiological effects of my PCOS. Will definitely hit that up soon too on my “Beauty & PCOS” page.

Ironically when I was in my teens, my body never suffered from acne; Although I technically didn’t have “PCOS symptoms” but did get my first menstrual period at the age of 9. Ever since then ,my menstrual cycle has been irregular ever since.

It isn’t throwback anything haha but while I was cleaning up my email this morning I found so many photos! First thing I noticed was my pinky; that bih has been up since day 1 ha! 💁🏻‍♀️
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But on some real human non makeup talk; the past couple of days have really got me thinking alot. I now can admit that I’m quite the perfectionist better known as a control freak. Yes; although the word perfectionist sounds better than control freak ha they’re pretty much the same. 💡You see, currently; I’ve been quite the “perfectionist” with my body for the past couple of years. Some weeks are awesome and then some weeks like when the perfectionist kicks in I drill myself to workout more, drink collagen, lose this fat pocket here, drink more water, gain weight there; no wait only in the booty, gotta do these 100 abs before bed and the casual missing in action on my social but post quotes yay #realtalk . Exhausting to say the least cause in reality I unconsciously apply “perfectionism” or my level expectations (ufffff yep I did that) not only to myself and my appearance but to my work life,(granted yes can help me to be better but also lifts up my anxiousness) my social activities, all my relationships, etc & although we like to use this word in a positive light ... sh**t ... I think we use it to cover up some deep issues we actually gotta work on, at least I did. #ImHumanToo . But I’m super thankful when I find photos like these because all that control freak sht leaves; like for me it brings me back down to reality. Like woah I did that!!! Not only does reminds me where I’m at now but also how blessed I actually am! .
Celebrate your wins over and over if YOU need to! Remember what you have fought and surpassed! Society has taught us that’s not “humbling” it’s not, it gratitude.

So here’s the deal why I never go so deep into answering "How did I lose the weight?" In reality; I never publicly discussed how I ....pcos